Archetypal Exploration: Felina's 10th House- Rebel

Tonight Mercury shifted from retrograde to direct motion. Here, we feel our collective mind almost at a standstill before Mercury picks up speed again as it retraces its steps. Communication is key right now.

As it turns out, I communicated with Spirit tonight at our monthly Shamanic Drum Circle at Unity Church. Phoenix, my totem within, introduced me to the City of the Sun during my journey. As Phoenix is my 10th House guide, the communication that transpired from this journey holds the key to my highest potential in this life.

That is what the 10th House of Astrology is about, your highest potential...and your overall journey in this lifetime. Whether it be your career, your role within a group or family, or how you are publicly recognized...the 10th House shows your destination within your Sacred Contract between you and the Creator.

This house is where my Vesta in Aquarius, my asteroid of hearth and home, resides. She not only resides there, but she keeps my inner fire lit and devotes herself to the purification of my Higher Self. In Aquarius, she guides me on my own unique path toward discovering myself within the collective. My ways may seem strange to others, but I can only go my way...and the more inner truth I discover on my path, the better I can care for others along their own.

Which brings me to the archetype that influences this house and guides me along in my journey toward my highest potential...the Rebel. Maybe you're not surprised. I was created, in this lifetime to be a non-conformist who walks along my own path to the beat of my own drum. As I've said before, this is not an easy path. The path of the Rebel often lacks the approval of others. The shadow Rebel will rebel against nearly anything that wasn't their own idea. I am not this kind of Rebel. I am the Rebel who trusts legitimate authority in circumstances which do not attempt to disempower me...but strikes out on her own when conformity caves in on itself from false foundations.

I wrote of the Goddess in the 9th House, but in the 10th House...my relationship to God has been brought to light. Like Vesta, when I was young, I wanted to understand and commune with God. I went, without my family, to the many churches of my hometown to find God there. The search was mostly unsuccessful. I found man there, but not really God. This brought me to exploring other religions, which led me to the Goddess...but I still did not understand God in the eyes of the church and the structure of their rules. As I became a woman, I began looking for this connection to God by having relationships with men. This was not the right path either, so I continued to understand the Goddess more and more. Still, I wanted to know the balance of both.

But it wasn't until I sacrificed everything that wasn't leading to my highest potential, and found love with the man I was meant to marry, that I truly knew God's presence in my life. He was there all along. The search was bringing me to my highest potential...the marriage of both aspects of the Divine, and the power of creativity that is born from this union.

So I may seem to rebel against what is considered normal, or low profile, or this or that. But it all serves a purpose...my relationship to the Divine. It's not the path for everyone, it is the path for me. And though it may seem non-conformist to believe what I believe, do what I do, see how I see, and be who I am...seeking no approval, no safety, no followers or leaders...I am blessed with the life I am truly meant to live. And isn't that the point, really?

Rebel

by Felina Lune Kavi

She doesn’t need the approval

Of anyone for anything

She just does what she does

‘Cause it means…

Everything.

There isn’t a direction to go

Guided by anyone,

Except for her own journey

Learning her destiny

Like everyone.

Phoenix Mother

By Felina Lune Kavi

On a palm in my paradise,

Phoenix gathers up the ashes

Of her ancestor.

Out of the ash

She forms

a sweet-scented egg.

Purple-red plumage

Glistens in the sunlight,

Gently moved by the breeze.

Followed by a flock of doves,

She carries the egg

Higher in the sky.

Destiny guides her

To the city of the Sun.

She enters the palace of the King.

Placing the egg in his golden hands,

She thanks him for his love

And for his light.

He blesses her

With his warm hands

Upon her glowing belly.

She is pregnant with light,

As she thanks him once more

And returns to build a new nest.

Archetypal Exploration: Felina's 5th House- Prostitute

The Fifth House of Astrology is about creativity, children, romance, good fortune, and speculative ventures. Psyche is in Retrograde in my 5th house, pulling this energy inward...a Goddess within. My Prostitute archetype also resides in this house. Another one of the Survival archetypes that plays a crucial role in the soul's journey, all of us learn the Prostitute's lesson of integrity in various ways. This Fifth House area of life is where I learned to have faith in myself, the Goddess within, and the God that connects us all to Her. Caroline Myss, in her book 'Sacred Contracts', calls the Prostitute archetype our "Guardian of Faith." I recommend this book if you like to read...and if you're reading this, you probably do. Caroline Myss goes on to explain the healing challenge contained within the lesson of the fifth house is like 'entering the desert'. She compares it to "the Dark Night of the soul described by mystics...you are no longer receiving energy from the world you have left behind, but you also have not yet established a flow of energy from the next stage of your life. That period of aridity--the desert--can be exhausting and depressing as you symbolically thirst for God."

I walked this desert before, and I learned that lesson. It's a lesson of how much of yourself (body, mind, and soul) you are willing to give up for physical security. When Alyrica was born, I tried to stay with her father so her idea of family wouldn't be broken...even though our relationship was no longer good for any of us. I had to find faith in myself, after she was born, that I could create the family she needs. I became empowered again, and detached from the life that had once fearfully held me back from my own authority. In that lesson, I had the good fortune of finding that Michael was the man I'm meant to be with forever. And in that experience, I found God...connecting eternally to the Goddess within.

So for this Mercury Retrograde's Archetypal Exploration, I'm honoring the Prostitute archetype as well as Psyche and Eros. A strange combination, at first glance, but it is my life I'm dissecting here. I'm compelled to discover deeper meanings than what appears on the surface. In other words, look beyond what we know of prostitutes and discover the crisis of faith and loss of integrity that they represent. This archetype has become an ally in guiding me through the path of my own power, alerting me to the warning signs of compromising my values for breakable promises of physical security. With awareness, I hope you can see how this archetype can be an ally to your own life...coming out from the shadows to show you the meaning of faith, however it pertains to your own spiritual path.

Interesting, perhaps only to me, is that today Mercury Retrogrades through the degree where my 5th House begins. I didn't plan it, but my Psyche's own retrograde must have been working in synch with Mercury's retrograde transit. The sabian symbol for Leo 23 is 'A bareback rider'. So I guess I'm going to keep boldly riding on the path I've ridden, but never written, before.

Prostitute

by Felina Lune Kavi

Down the street where she sold herself,

she walks in scuffed-up heels...

balancing the new weight of change,

forgetting how she might look so strange,

discovering how she truly feels.

In daytime, this journey is a hardened desert;

the dark nights she knew have passed...

clicks along concrete the only sound,

echoing off hotels and offices all around.

Then a moment's peace at last.

Her baby kicks inside her womb,

announcing why she's here...

there's no more security in what she's done,

she steps forward into maturity for this little one.

It's time to get rid of fear.

Facing the trash can on this familiar corner,

she kicks off those tired shoes...

she throws them away with all of that pain,

away with that emptiness and all of that shame.

Her soul has been renewed.

The New Wings of Psyche

by Felina Lune Kavi

The creative key to the soul is in passwords:

you say 'harm none' and 'love always' with true meaning...

and harmonious expression explodes into Psyche,

her spiritual faith unfolds into wings,

and she ascends with Eros

in ecstasy of love eternal...creating bliss.

Eros in January

by Felina Lune Kavi

It's cold here tonight...
wrap me warm in your skin,
lock me up in your sight,
hold me close and breathe in...
and out.

Outside in the dark...
a new moon on the rise.
We are lost under stars
in the most beautiful sky.

Eros in January,
you touch the soul within me.
Eros in January,
fast as love flies through you and me.

Our hearts beat whole at last,
in the wake of our dreams.
I'm too in love to ask,
is this really what it seems...
to be?

Beyond what we believed
of what love ever meant,
this love is all we need
to know our soul's full intent.

Eros in January,
you touch the soul within me.
Eros in January,
fast as love flies through you and me.